Another team lets me down
After spending the day in the OC yesterday taking care of some business, I drove up to the Rose Bowl to watch Cal play UCLA. I left Irvine at 4:30pm, about the same time as the kickoff, and arrived for halftime. I bought a ticket off a scalper and went in to meet Gary, Miklos, and Dyer. The stadium was packed and Cal had a solid lead so things were looking good but Cal just couldn't make it happen. It was aweful. If you want to know the play-by-play go to espn.com because thinking about it still pisses me off.
After the game, Miklos and Josh were headed to some party in Hermosa Beach but Gary and I declined to go. We instead went home and did nothing, which I am actually pretty glad about. I have now gone two weekends in a row without having so much as one beer. It's been over a year since I've done that, and it feels great. It's been partly out of necessity: since I don't have a job it would be foolish of me to drop tons of jack at the bars. Mainly though it's been by choice. Other than attractive women and good weather, another factor motivating my move was a desire to make some significant life changes. Living in the Bay Area I felt like my life was stuck in first gear. I'd spend the week working at a job I didn't like, and spend the weekends drinking so I could get my mind off it. I wasn't getting anything done, I wasn't working towards any goals in particular, and I felt like my life was going nowhere. I'd wake up every morning and realize that I was just a day older with nothing to show for it.
Now that I am somewhat distanced from my life up there I see that I was 100% correct. My life's taking a dramatic turn now and it's for the better. I don't have a job and pretty soon I'm going to have lots of bills to pay, but I'm not scared. I'll find something. More importantly I'm starting to chisel out a path for myself, a future with concrete goals to pursue. If this comes at the cost of a financial uncertainty, so be it.
After the game, Miklos and Josh were headed to some party in Hermosa Beach but Gary and I declined to go. We instead went home and did nothing, which I am actually pretty glad about. I have now gone two weekends in a row without having so much as one beer. It's been over a year since I've done that, and it feels great. It's been partly out of necessity: since I don't have a job it would be foolish of me to drop tons of jack at the bars. Mainly though it's been by choice. Other than attractive women and good weather, another factor motivating my move was a desire to make some significant life changes. Living in the Bay Area I felt like my life was stuck in first gear. I'd spend the week working at a job I didn't like, and spend the weekends drinking so I could get my mind off it. I wasn't getting anything done, I wasn't working towards any goals in particular, and I felt like my life was going nowhere. I'd wake up every morning and realize that I was just a day older with nothing to show for it.
Now that I am somewhat distanced from my life up there I see that I was 100% correct. My life's taking a dramatic turn now and it's for the better. I don't have a job and pretty soon I'm going to have lots of bills to pay, but I'm not scared. I'll find something. More importantly I'm starting to chisel out a path for myself, a future with concrete goals to pursue. If this comes at the cost of a financial uncertainty, so be it.
posted by The Puma at 11:19 AM
2 Comments:
I have a job, a girlfriend and a hobby that takes up most of my free time. What's your excuse?
My excuse? I've posted more than twice a week so far this month, just as I had planned. I don't think I need an excuse for that.
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